Great...tomorrow is my birthday, am broke and broken heart! But still its better than having someone slapping my face on my birthday!
I was so emotional last night. Thinking about my daughter. We've been seperated for around 2 months. Like been forever. Can't stop crying. Took a sleeping pill. Just before went to sleep, there he goes again. Sending sms to me. He ask why do I care if he going out with other women since our marriage is over. Couldn't hold myself, I sms him that i didn't mad because of that. I mad because he cutting Darlene's expenses just because he found another women! And he replied to me "am not giving anyone anything ok, I wanted to sent cash for Darlene, but I don't trust u using it on her, I rather pay for her direct, even though all happen, u have seperated my love and Darlene, you know she need me too, and she close to me... u will bare all the efect and sin by seperated me and my beautiful daughter! Bye"My life just great and terrific! Now he not gonna give money at all. How do I pay for Darlene expenses? How do I pay our debt that we have since we married? I did not replied to him. I didn't trust myself either. I could just burst out to him in anger.
Driving to office early morning like Zombie, half of me on the road, half of me thinking about the sms.
If there one thing I could do about him, I would open his heart and his brain and see if its still there!
