One Colourful Day

First Chopstick Lesson

Okay, hold the chopstick like this
Struggle with the chopstick
Please don't fall...don't fall, otherwise I will get scold....

lagi terrer...guna sebelah chopstick pun boleh masuk mulut

Oho.....letih oooo.....

How to tie your hair

1. Brush your hair

2. Tie your hair




















3. Opps...not done. Still have to tie the hair :-)

Kuching Visit on Feb 2010

I went back to Kuching to visit my daughter on Last February. She waiting for me at the Airport with my Mom. See her again after 5 months, definitely something. She much more smaller than I remember. Couldn't stop staring at me from the Airport till home. A little confuse between me and my sister. Sometime call my sister name. The next following day, when we become more closer, much more easier for her to call me 'mommy'.

My ex, call me every single day to check on us and talk to Darlene. Just before went backto Kuching we fight over the phone. He wants me to bring Darlene back. I totally aware why i left her there, but when my ex scold me and told that "it's okay, if you want to keep her away from me, but don't you feel guilty to seperate her from her own mother. Don't you think she suppose to be at least with the mother?!" Well, I am feel guilty actually. But, what choice do I have?

Anyway, spend some quality time with her for a week. When I was there she always told me that "mommy, I want to follow you back to KL with that aeroplane". My mom always tease her that she will not coming to KL with me if she not behave. And i think, it a little harsh for her. Had to advise my mom to stop it. Told my daughter that she will follow me back to KL when she a little older. Probably hard for her to understand than my mom's version but at least she knows that she still be loved and nobody punish her that bad because of misbehave.

Toughest day is when I leaving her again to KL. Had to lie to her that am going to toilet, so she won't be screaming watching me leaving her.

As usual, some of her picture from my last visit.

A teddy bear from her father

Darlene with her cousin, Shahmi (9 months now)

Play with my make up

Ice cream time!

A moment before fly back to KL

How You Feel

How You Feel?

The whole months thinking of holding her
to kiss her forehead again
to sing and tell her bedtime or 'freetime' story again

But, after so long of waiting
All I found was her confuse face

How you feel when the only one you love
The only reason of you still breathing
call other people 'mom'
and call you 'sis'?

How you feel...
when you was told, that once you leave her
she refuse to sleep
refuse to eat, refuse to drink
and all she wants is you...by her side again

and that what is going on for months....

Ya, you know she alright now. Her confuse face confirmed that.
That the difficult time has pass
Finally she adjust...

and now she comes to new path of life
either you will be forgotten
or is there any other alternate path to choose?

Tengok la Betapa Seronoknya Dia

Korang tengok la anak aku, bukan main lagi dia.... ni adik aku jadi choreographer, dengan bapak aku sekali jadi model. Patut la dia tak ingat kat emak dia langsung.

Gambar diambik dengan kamera Cath masa Gawai hari tu.

Went back to Sarawak last Saturday to send Darlene. She having good time overthere. She enjoy playing with the cats. Bully my mother and father.

On Sunday, try to look for her milk, couldn't find it anywhere. Then called up the customer service. They told me that 'there is no Bebelac Milk at Sarawak'. So, that mean I have to post from here!
Back to KL on Monday morning. My brother send me and and I have to fight to control my tears infront of him. But, when he not there, I cry all the way till KL. I don't care people stare at me.

Sometime I just hate my x. Because of him all these happen. But, no point for me to show my anger. I had to live for Darlene. I don't have time for anything else right now.

Back at KL, feel something missing, and we know what is it....

Having good time with her bicycle at our veranda

As promise, some photos of my new place. My little model will shows you around :-D

And this is the ice cream supplier's house :-p
That the owner house. His worker living next to us. Nice neighbour though....

Staircase to upstairs / bedrooms

The third room, I make it as a dressing room

The model shows a way to bedroom 1 and bedroom 2.

Original master room, become bedroom 2

This is middle room, but I make it as master room ;-)

Our kitchen and that poor washing machine.

Living room. Still messy and alot of thing to be done :-p

Dinner Area

Take your time to try a new pose :-D

ok wait ar...which finger...how many...wait,wait...


Ok! I made it. Faster take my picture.

little model in action!