Can you believe that I going to see my x yesterday? Actually I try to convince myself too!
He told me that he wants to see his mother and no transport, and since the mother always pinning on me about her son, so there I am... waiting for him at the car park and off we go to his mother house. Looks nice and smells good :-). Weird enough I can't look into his eyes (even his face). Talk less and try not to mentioned about the divorce thing.
Can't help myself but all these remind of our old times. Climbing the stairs to his mother house, having dinner there and chatting in the living room, and our BIG wedding picture still on the wall!!
Spend few hours at his mother house, and before 10.00pm we make a move. Thought of doing some shopping but terribily feels tired and my body shaking. After send him back home, drove as fast as I can to get home with some mix feeling. I can't tell you but, the feeling more like after farewell feeling.
