Nothing much new this few weeks. I have this policy going on until now. It what I call as 'every day one step closer to Darlene'. Well, since I leave her at My mom, she much closer to my parents already. Kind of sad when she call me 'sister' and my mom 'mom'. But at the other hand, at least I know she happy and safe there.
She the only daughter I have, and most probably the only one child ever. So, pretty much important and mean alot for me if I had a chance to raise her by my own hand, before my own eyes. But fate, destiny or whatever you want to call it really giving me hard time on this. Still figure any way to get to close to her.
So, every day, whether I call her, just to remind that am her mommy or apply any job at Kuching or any other job with much more higher pay. Beside that, makes a regular contacts to my friends back at hometown to check if there any other opportunity for me. But, so far...there no good news for me. So, here I am, pretty stuck, and don't know what else to do.
I don't know why, but just would like to share....I wrote in my dairy not too long ago that I wish my husband crawling on his knee, begging to get back to me and my daughter. This few weeks he'd been sending weird sms (not crawling or begging though...but close...). I call it weird sms because, sound like flirting, and the latest one he said he missed our family. Heh....don't worry, I will not get back to him. Just wanted to say that, after all he done in hurting me so so so badly.....I feels good now :-)
