Can't go back for Gawai, so sad.... So thinking of going back just to see how's Darlene doing there. Few days been thinking about her and sometime she refuse to talk to me over phone, makes me worried.
Looking for anybody to be my sponsor, lucky last minute my ex come up. He is suppose to send money for our expenses last month. So, told him to send some extra cash which he did. Bought last minute ticket and never told my family that I will be back home. It was a suprise.
They are suprise to see me standing with my big smile in front of the door. Darlene got so excited and I can tell she the most happiest person on earth the moment she saw me. The whole day she stick to me, refuse to go anywhere without me. She will screaming whenever she can't find me anywhere. When I hold her tight can feel her heartbeat.... so fast!
Looking at her... still no change. Just much taller. She happy and busy all the time. She will feed the rooster / hens, bully my brother, my sister and my father. She have friends and cats to entertain her. When she bored she will watch her barney or Impy Island cartoon. I don't know whether it just my feeling, but I can tell that she can feels something is missing. She probably knows that I gonna leave her again....
Anyway, was there for three days two night. On the second day, meeting my friend. She brought me to a temple to 'tilik nasib' or a fortune telling. This is my first time, so she guide me. She burn the stick and pray for me. Then, they ask me to wash my hand with a some 'speacil' water. I thought it will be a tarot card, but it totally different. It is cards, but not tarot cards and she read by calculation of the cards.
What she told me kind of funny and weird. First she ask me, what I wanted to know. Then, of course lar...when a women going there.... we always wants to see family matter. Then, she told me that I want to leave my husband (which is really true). That my husband do not want to leave me as he still loves his family and he wants to come back actually. She told me that my house and my finance is ok, not really in bad situation(this is weird, coz I have alot of thing to pay!). She said, alot of money goes in and alot goes out too! (funny, but true). She said, that I can't depend on my husband. I have to work out on my own, if I want to live comfortable ( not rich, but comfortable).
I ask her whether its a good choice if I want to leave him. So told me that our 'jodoh' still there, but everything up to myself. If I decided to stay, I have to be patient espeacilly this year. She said both of us like fire, ego and 'degil'. So, we always fighting, espeacilly me who always nag him. I told her...of course I nag him when he have girlfriend and not working. She told yes, he having an affair with two women! Padan muka dua dua perempuan tu.
She told me that I independence person and won't be rely on him, that I will think about myself first (actually half telling and half asking). I told her yes, I would be like that, and both of them (my friend) laughing at me. Anyway, she told me that man easily stick to me and I won't wait long to get new one (this is the funny and wierd part). I told them, that would be impossible because I don't have feeling to anybody and I am with nobody right now. And I scare to hear that actually, because all the man that I going out with right now, not up to my 'liking level'. How on earth that I can be with anybody? Then she replied, "yes you said like that at this moment, but when you see this guy, you will say 'i love you' to this guy!" and the whole temple fill with our laughter. I ask her if I knew that guy and she told me, "no, this is new guy and you will know once you see him". Oh thank god....I told my friend, and she laughing at me all the way back home.
Anyway, some of the thing she told me is true, like that I have kid (even I never told her), that I the one who initiate the seperation / divorce and my husband won't let me go. Some of the thing she told me that I really hope will come true like if we ever divorce, my kid will be with me and my finance not bad, that I still have food and cloth to wear even my situation not really good for this year, and my husband living in a horrible situation (I know I sound bad...). Some of the things sound rather funny to me. How can I fall in love when I feel 'numb' right now. Beside that I am FAT now and look messy too, not to mention I have kid. Who is that poor guy? Anyway, the most funniest one, when she told me that i will have another kid, a son. Hahahahaha....That hillarious, but not impossible...I should get Darlene a little brother huh. Hmmm....that absolutely need a big plan.
Ok, enough of the fortune telling story. Leave home at 6.30pm on Monday evening, as usual with tears on my face. As usual also....try my best to hide it. I ask my sister to take Darlene for walk. I don't want her to scream to see me leaving, or I will be screaming too! My neighbour gave me a bottle of Tuak and a traditional biscuit. Reach airport early and i take my sweet time window shopping at airport, and I saw all the pretty necklace. I don't think I saw it somewhere in KL, so I ask the salesgirl and she told me Iban people handcraft. I ask for her phone number, in case I want to sell it here :-p.
I parked my car at Zaliha's place and reach there aound 12.45pm. When I reach there, noticed my tyres flat! God! Couldn't believe it happen to me at that hour and I was so tired like hell. I don't know what to do and who to call. I call my other friend he did not pick up. So , got to call Angela. She much more experience I guess :-). After call her decided to stay at Zaliha place and Zaliha ask me to call Frank, maybe he can help. Frank gave me a clearer instruction what to do as he got the same experience before. So, I slept at Zaliha's place, took a train to work with Zaliha in the morning. Then, plan to check on the nearest workshop, and get them to go to my car to change the tyres. Kesian kereta aku.
So that the story of my weekend. Wait for this coming weekend. Believe another story to update?!
